Needed

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Lorenzo Anzaldua

I just wanna be heard, I’m screaming but no one looks my way

I just want this pain to go away

Please just hear me 

I know there are people around me 

But I feel alone 

I just wanna be here for someone 

Not just here to sit on my phone

I’m angry and anxious 

But I feel less important than the people around me 

I’m “A-ok” 

That what I'll say 

When people ask me how I'm doing 

In a situation I can't possibly comprehend 

So I say that “I'm okay”

Knowing it sounds better then I’m fine 

But I know on the inside I'm not alright 

I'm on a constant internal fright 

So I bottle everything away

So people think I'm happy 

I put on a fake smile, and fake laugh 

But it's all a misconception 

Of my own thoughts 

My mind going too fast for my body to handle 

I feel overwhelmed like I'm getting overloaded by my own body

So I break down 

Letting everything out

My thought, feeling and myself as a person 

Knowing that I've been living a lie

Background: My whole life I've never felt like enough for anyone. I feel less important than everyone else and that's what is behind this poem, just feeling like you’re never enough and how that impacts a person and the poem was me explaining how I felt.